Maybe this is retarded. Not even something that deserves time to write or think about. I can't help but let the feeling of loneliness take over, though. Does ice cream ever mildew? o_o Okay back to what I was saying before, I think every teenager at some point in their life feels like they're lonely. I'm only sixteen, but I feel like I'm missing out on something, maybe even missing out on something this very moment. It's not that I don't feel like I fit in, I just don't fit out...side. I really want to, though. I'm tired of being shy, tired of the internet. I’m so sick of Facebook and my constant checking of it even though NOTHING is happening. I basically want one of those, what do you call it? Ah, yes... lives. Everything and everyone is just so boring right now. I've been going to gym a lot more because even standing around doing nothing or cleaning, or even working out is more fun than staying at home. I don't know maybe this is all a waste of time? Maybe these words don't mean anything because in a couple weeks, or months, or years I'll have a lot more real life friends, or maybe not? And even if I don't why would that be so bad? My life isn't that bad, I just like to complain a lot. Sigh. All I'm trying to say is my life is like a regular ol' turtle, like a sea turtle, only boring. And I know that after watching Finding Nemo that sea turtles are way more fun than regular ones. To top it all off my room is a wreck right now. I try to keep it clean, but it just keeps dirtying itself! It's really hard to concentrate in filth... Urgh. Today I guess just wasn't all that fabulous. I woke up around noon, which was pretty good for me, then did some paperwork for Mom. Total disaster struck, it’s been fixed, though and then I found this humungous spider. It was dangling and it was so huge and EW! So, then Cole had vacuumed downstairs, my turn to vacuum upstairs. No problem, right? Wrong, I had just gotten finished vacuuming his room and was moving on to my room when it cut off. I emptied it because I was thinking, maybe it's just overfilled and can't take anymore crap (lol) Emptied it, didn't turn on. I thought maybe it was just the outlet, tried another one, and didn’t turn on. GASP! On the plus side I got out of vacuuming, but still not a good thing. Before that I dropped a combo on the floor. Been very hot today, too. Oh and I had to do math, I hate math, worst day ever! Yesterday was pretty good, though. Okay, scratch that it was really good. Didn't get on the computer much, started getting ready for the gym like right away instead. Wore my grey t-shirt dress and my new yellow flats :O Plus even though it was driving me bananas yesterday, my hair had just been trimmed by Mom, so it was more "bouncy." Then we came home and made those yummy chicken enchiladas. All my shows were coming on also! Like the new show I really like, "The Paper." And a last minute decision I made to go to the gym again that night was a let's say very good one. For some reason there were a ton of guys there, which is not normal because when we go workout we workout late, around 11ish... when hardly anyone is there. Not really anyone there that I liked, but it's always more fun when they're there :D I know that if we go workout tonight it probably won't be as much fun as yesterdays. For some reason Mondays are really busy or that's what my Dad says anyway.
