Part 6: Friday, August 1, 2008

I'm feeling a little intimidated by myself at the moment. I read my earlier blog posts and I'm not sure if I can own up to the funny Arianah I was back in April. So instead of being funny and random I'm going to try and give an honest account of how things in life are for me right now, yes you can go ahead and lay some pillows around you if you are in a chair because you may fall off of it, sleeping, from lack of entertainment. Anyway, my life hasn't changed drastically since the last time I blogged (I always wanted to use that word). My room has changed though, my bed's against the wall like Cole's room and everything else has been rearranged too, and I have a "computer" in my room now. I watched Batman Begins tonight and am totally in love with Cillian Murhpy now, he's the scarecrow in that movie. He is so hott, don't get me wrong, though I respect him for his acting ability as well, but there's something about his lips that I'm in love with. They look so moist and kiss-able (haha). Speaking of Batman Begins, we saw The Dark Knight day after it came out. It is one of my most favorite movies now, it was just... the awesomness cannot be described by me. I really hope we can see it in Imax like Dad was talking about. I got a new haircut. Basically to put it in laymen's terms, it looks like any of the singers/actresses/models such as: Gwen Stefani on the cover of her CD "The Sweet Escape," Tyra Banks, and Heidi Klum. Someone even said on Facebook that I remind them of Cleopatra, that's right walk like an Egyptian. Yes I'm still on Facebook and yes I'm still complaining about how freakin' boring it is. I've recently joined my/his/her/us/their/space. XD It's as boring as Facebook too, I don't even know why I bother. I actually already had an account, I just had a picture of a penguin skiing, and my name was Gertrude Lee. Gerdy for short, naturally. I like hopscotch and long shopping cart rides in the park (j/k about this). I only had one friend for the longest and it was that long stemmed Ida, the best asparagus in town. Tomorrow or rather today is Girl's Day, where Mom and I go do something "girly" and then Cole and Dad go see a movie or go to the Bowling alley. So far Mom and I have gone to the mall (Where Matthew supposedly spotted us, but didn't come up to us and instead went up to these other girls thinking they were us and asked why we were ignoring him... puh-lease, it sounds lamer and lamer as I write it lol) and then saw Maid of Honor (Kind of idk....... sucked eggs), then we went to the beach by ourselves (TWICE, cause we're good like that), then we saw Lion King on broadway (IT WAS SO AWESOME, too bad we felt like we were going to pass out because we didn't eat enough beforehand lol), we went to the Myakka State Park and took tons of pictures of the canopy bridge thing (Nature is so beautiful and it's close to free to look at!), we've also done a ton of other things like get mani-s and pedi-s, and just farted around the house and watched tons of movies like Urban Cowboy. You don't always have to go out to have fun, sometimes you do need to "vege-out" haha. So, I'm (as best as I think possible) over the guys that I wasn't over before. If that makes any sense. I'm over rock guitarist who is extremely opinionated yet doesn't REALLY care about what other people think. I'm kind of over guy who is hot and cold, one day he's all lovey dovey with you the next day he's like totally ignoring you for a game (Which I guess I'm like too, but I don't want that anymore... it's sad, but I'm kind of hoping that I'm actually over him this time and for good). I think I'm getting over all these guys because I happen to like this other guy, or I think I do. He's been in quite a few of my dreams. I haven't seen him in a month or so, the last time he came was July 11th. That was quite awhile ago and the last thing he said to me was something about me eating goldfish and not working out. I really thought he was, well a big nerd when I first "saw" him, I didn't even really think about it or him at all the first couple of times he came by when I was there. But I was looking at these pictures and he has major abs... MAJOR ABS. I'm talking about sexy abercrombie model abs. Maybe I never really thought he was that cute because he didn't walk around with his shirt off (we should really think about having a no shirts policy for guys... of course then we'd have to look at all the fat people too, sorry didn't mean that as an insult even though it is). I think it's because I haven't seen him in awhile that this crush thing has kind of built itself up. After I saw his space I was thinking "Wth, this is all he's looking for, sickkkkk." So, I was totally over him at that point. At least I thought I was. But now, his name goes through my mind at least once a day. It's sad. Really sad. I really want to add that other loser so maybe he'll see that I have one because he's like best friends with the loser who friend requested me, but I'm not allowed to add any of them. Which is probably for the best. But I'd still like him to know that I have one. I'm going to call the guy I like CM, okay. I'm not sure of who exactly is going to read this, if anybody, maybe just me later but I still would like to keep it confidential. So, anyway quick story I saw the loser post on CM's wall that he loves him, now I know the loser was being corny, but CM has the loser as his top friend. Now that might not be a huge thing to some people, but CM has somewhere around, I don't know 700 friends. Being #1 out of 700 and something is pretty fricken amazing. So I'm thinking they're pretty tight. They're tighter then spandex probably. These are all just guesses, though nothing concrete. That's my pattern though, when I have a crush on someone I learn everything and anything I can about them. I didn't do that with Jackson, but he was my first crush and we went to school together so I could just ask him crap I didn't really have any social sites to stalk him on, so to speak. I learned a ton about my second crush, Cele, though. That was because he worked at Cream of the Crop so I didn't know him outside of that. Cele was a really sweet guy and I remember this one time he found $100 lying in the hall at work and returned it