Uhm. Yes. You might not want to read this.

Frazzled- frayed at the edges; exhausted either physically or emotionally. That's my word of the month. Or last few months! I feel like my brain is going to explode. Smirnoff. lol. There are so many things I want to accomplish! & I feel like I have absolutely no time to do them! Agh. And on top of it all my body decided to have a somewhat severe allergic reaction to something I ate 3 days ago. I'm still trying to figure out what. Hah. But I have an idea. I've never been this allergic to anything in my life! I thought I had chicken pox! I've only gotten hives mebbay once or twice before. But they were in way smaller amounts and not really because of any food I ate. Ugh! And I want longer piano lessons! 30 minutes just isn't enough to cover all the stuff we need to! I have absolutely no homework this week, which I should be happy about, but I feel like I'm slacking! & I only have two pieces to practice. & I'm practicing one I've already practiced (I just kept wanting to give the song 4 beats, instead of 3). I had 6 last week! And I don't want to do this recital thing! I know I should. Especially if I'm going to go fly over to LA by myself. But I just don't want to. It's at a church. & I'm just not experienced enough yet to dive into this. It's 5 weeks away and she says she wants to put everything else on the back burner while we learn this piece I picked out by Chopin. It's 3 beats for each measure (hah). I haven't even learned all the notes yet, though! It's so confusing. I tried to practice it today and ugh! There's so much hand changing! It's really getting me down and I really just want to learn everything else and then try and master something like this. She wants me to memorize it too! Which I can do, but 5 weeks! Really, 4 now. I don't know. Sigh. And all these meds I'm taking for this stupid allergic reaction. Well this has turned into COMPLAIN BLOG. lol. Wahhh me wahhh me. *deep breaths* It's gonna be fine! I just needed to write somewhere all this crap I'm worried about! I'll write more later. Hopefully I can get up semi-early tomorrow since the groomer is coming at 12. And then I can do something about school. Or at least think about it. Because I really want to order that course and get a move on! It's fricken time! :D