I feel kind of empty and that scares me.

I know, I know. Right now is the time that I have to be alone. People don't think of it that way, but if I met someone right now chances are he wouldn't be the "one." I need to wait until I'm more mature and actually can do things for myself. It's just so hard. Not to cry, not to wish, not to think about. It's everywhere and constantly. It follows me everywhere. Even if I were to never get on the computer, it's in life around me. There are people who are happy together, who single each other out and find happiness with that person. I'm alone. I have to make myself happy and I have to convince myself that this is only temporary. That one day I'll find him, or he'll find me. It gets so hard to do this daily convincing though. I don't think about it every single day but when you're reminded of it how can you not? When you see a picture on facebook of this girl you know who's a model and her 7th boyfriend is tickling her and they both look so happy and cute or you are so bored that you go to look at this guy's tumblr that you promised yourself you wouldn't look at again because he doesn't know you exist and then you find out he's back with his ex and they look blissfully happy together even though she treated him horribly. It's things like these that just kind of mess with you. They make you not want to talk about how you're feeling. I almost didn't write this out. Writing like this though it makes me feel like perhaps one day, one person will come across this and they'll be feeling the exact same way. Well I'm just here to say that you're not alone. You may feel like it, but you're not. I promise you you're not because people like me are all around you. It's just hard to notice them because of all the happy couples blocking them from your view or perhaps you catch them at a moment when they seem happy. But we're all here. And we have to get through this suckage of teen years together.