I'm up at 5:31 am and he is on because he can't sleep. It drives me crazy when someone just stops talking to me without giving me a legit reason. Perhaps I'm confusing this feeling with love or whatever... All I know is it hurts to see his name online but it hurts just as bad (maybe even more) to not see it there at all. I feel so pathetic. I tried staring at Isadora's recent (gorgeous) profile picture to give me strength and that just made me feel ugly about how I look lol I mean her hair looks perfectly curled and blonde and her make up is fantastic and her teeth look so straight and white :3 so then I tried looking at "the" picture of them kissing to kind of idk, hurt me into forgetting him? Hating him? I shouldn't be this hung up on this guy. We never dated and although we talked for awhile we only talked a few times. Why does nothing work? Why do I have a blank chat window up for him? Why do I keep refreshing the page? Why am I such a gullible idiot? I have a doctor's app tommorrow. I hate him, but I don't. I want him, but I can't have him.
