I feel:

Kind of left out. I'm soooooo proud of my mom; how she's managed to pull all of this off, make it look effortless, and actually make people happy about the one thing they're most critical of: themselves. My mom truly is the most amazing person I know.
But today after the session and once I woke up from my nap I heard mimi talking to mom about the things the family we did pictures of said. And they said things like she's the most amazing person in the world (duh) and that they had the most fun they've had in their entire lives. And this was all great. But I felt like I wasn't apart of it. Like as if I hadn't been there. I know mom appreciates my help a lot but I still sat there on the floor about to cry, listening. And then when I went in there I felt like I couldn't jump in and say funny stuff I observed during the day about the family. And I look at izzy and cole and they have to do so little to get mimi to smile or laugh. Where with me I can barely get her to make eye contact. She just doesn't love me and I don't know why but even if she were to say that she did and that I read into it wrong it's the way she acts; the look in her eyes. When I heard her say that they didn't want to share my mom with all these people I wanted to barf. Or cry. I couldn't choose so I did neither. She's never given a damn about my mother until now. And that's one reason why I don't like her because she's caused my mom pain even though if asked today my mom would forgive everything she's ever done to her.